sabraather | (no subject)

*...noooooooooo cluuuuuuuuuuuuuuue SOMEONE TELL ME WHAT TO DO. p-pats?*

...are you sure you want to touch a sinner...? Maybe you should go away...

...Don't be a fucking moron.

[not sobbing rn, just crying silently.]

[and... what?] [?]

*...well he doesn't seem to be leaving. STILL AT A LOSS AS TO PROPER BEHAVIOR HERE BUT*

[...well. will try to blink his tears away, for Wolf's sake.]

[and gives Wolf a shaky smile, see, you're doing good. doesn't speak, because he feels like he might choke again.]

*yeah he'll just. sit here leaning up against you looking concerned and confused*

...I... even with not that girl, I did... and will... but am I doing it for him? Or for Heaven? Or for myself....? I want to know that. I want to know....!!!

...ah, sorry. [smiles at. it's not fake, it's just... not happy, but rather, a little grateful. to you.]

*shrugs, and just. Leans*

...s'okay.

[shudders, trying to stop a sudden sob.]

*dooooooooon't know what to do... patpat?*

[hugs him tightly, now crying silently, shivering a little] W-Wolf... you don't... need to. Be here. If you don't want to, I mean.

*well okay hugs I can do. WILL TRY TO SHIFT HIM AROUND A BIT so that Wolf can settle in his lap for better hugging WHY U SO TALL*

Stupid. If I didn't wanna be here I wouldn't be here.

You don't even know how many innocent people I might have destroyed.

I don't even know how many, because I don't remember!

...So? You don't know that for me either. So shut up and stop telling me to go away.

[What was that about shutting up? Alright, just. Sobs again, trembling. and looks a little sick. Hand on mouth.]

*just gonna sit here possibly in your lap and cuddle forever I guess*

[Just... slowly stops sobbing. And swallows something, with difficulty. Still looking a little sick.]

Ah... there's no reason for you to hear all of that... thank you for... your sympathy, I suppose.

[slowly tries to disengage and stand up. How do I get Wolf off my lap?]

*you don't, he's comfy*

You're pack, even if you're a dick sometimes. Pack takes care of itself, no matter what.

[takes a deep breath, no longer crying, but a little pale]

Pack... I see. Well... that sounds nice.

Thank you, Wolf. I apologize for hitting you earlier, when we first met.

*nods. Will sit here a moment longer to make sure he isn't going to run off or something*

...pack is everything.

*...ignores that other bit, we already dealt with that didn't we, stupid person*

Yes, pack is...everything to me, too. That's why... but if that's the only reason... I'm so despicably selfish.

[slowly tries to stand up again... but what to do with Wolf? Well, for now, pats him gently, hand still shaking a little.]

[did we really deal with anything? now I'm actually apologising]

*shrugs* Stop that. You can't fix it and you can't make it better whining about it now.

*does finally move off of him. ...and yes as far as Wolf is concerned meat was apology*

That's true, I can never fix it. And maybe, I'll have to do more than that. Unless I already did. So I...

[stands up and turns away, trying to smile, or at least stop feeling like crying. No reason to worry other teammates with his own burdens.]

*...okay you're still not okay. gets up and follows, growling a bit*

You can't fix it here at all. It's over. It happened. And now you gotta make sure it doesn't happen again, or here, or whatever, but you can't fix a damn thing by getting all sacrifice-y about it okay?