sabraather | (no subject)

...no...if it's for him... I won't regret... it's fine if I damn myself to Hell, to save him...

...but those poor humans... that poor girl... I'm glad Alex save her from me...

[still sobbing.]

But if it's... if Lord Rosiel's in danger... God, let me damn myself if that's what needed to save him. If he's suffering so much... Through no fault of his... ah, I'm such a useless son... [suddenly laughs a little, bitterly. and then, sobbing again.]

*...noooooooooo cluuuuuuuuuuuuuuue SOMEONE TELL ME WHAT TO DO. p-pats?*

...are you sure you want to touch a sinner...? Maybe you should go away...

...Don't be a fucking moron.

[not sobbing rn, just crying silently.]

[and... what?] [?]

*...well he doesn't seem to be leaving. STILL AT A LOSS AS TO PROPER BEHAVIOR HERE BUT*

[...well. will try to blink his tears away, for Wolf's sake.]

[and gives Wolf a shaky smile, see, you're doing good. doesn't speak, because he feels like he might choke again.]

*yeah he'll just. sit here leaning up against you looking concerned and confused*

...I... even with not that girl, I did... and will... but am I doing it for him? Or for Heaven? Or for myself....? I want to know that. I want to know....!!!

...ah, sorry. [smiles at. it's not fake, it's just... not happy, but rather, a little grateful. to you.]

*shrugs, and just. Leans*

...s'okay.

[shudders, trying to stop a sudden sob.]

*dooooooooon't know what to do... patpat?*

[hugs him tightly, now crying silently, shivering a little] W-Wolf... you don't... need to. Be here. If you don't want to, I mean.

*well okay hugs I can do. WILL TRY TO SHIFT HIM AROUND A BIT so that Wolf can settle in his lap for better hugging WHY U SO TALL*

Stupid. If I didn't wanna be here I wouldn't be here.

You don't even know how many innocent people I might have destroyed.

I don't even know how many, because I don't remember!

...So? You don't know that for me either. So shut up and stop telling me to go away.

[What was that about shutting up? Alright, just. Sobs again, trembling. and looks a little sick. Hand on mouth.]

*just gonna sit here possibly in your lap and cuddle forever I guess*

[Just... slowly stops sobbing. And swallows something, with difficulty. Still looking a little sick.]

Ah... there's no reason for you to hear all of that... thank you for... your sympathy, I suppose.

[slowly tries to disengage and stand up. How do I get Wolf off my lap?]

*you don't, he's comfy*

You're pack, even if you're a dick sometimes. Pack takes care of itself, no matter what.

[takes a deep breath, no longer crying, but a little pale]

Pack... I see. Well... that sounds nice.

Thank you, Wolf. I apologize for hitting you earlier, when we first met.

*nods. Will sit here a moment longer to make sure he isn't going to run off or something*

...pack is everything.

*...ignores that other bit, we already dealt with that didn't we, stupid person*

Yes, pack is...everything to me, too. That's why... but if that's the only reason... I'm so despicably selfish.

[slowly tries to stand up again... but what to do with Wolf? Well, for now, pats him gently, hand still shaking a little.]

[did we really deal with anything? now I'm actually apologising]

*shrugs* Stop that. You can't fix it and you can't make it better whining about it now.

*does finally move off of him. ...and yes as far as Wolf is concerned meat was apology*

That's true, I can never fix it. And maybe, I'll have to do more than that. Unless I already did. So I...

[stands up and turns away, trying to smile, or at least stop feeling like crying. No reason to worry other teammates with his own burdens.]